Immature

29th February 2012  Sunny

it’s an unusual day. The rare sun goes up eventually during winter days. Warming and Moistening the cold air.

Walking on the sidewalk while the slightly wind is blowing on my face. I turned into a restaurant for a breakfast. to fill energy for whole day working.

After paid and changed money. I went to class very lively. hearing the sound which made by the rushing vehicles, and also the sound whispered by neighbors. However, I still can realize a man-made, dimly sound passed over my ears which is the word of “little brother”. It as though yelled by a woman who behind me. I thought it’s a mother called her son.  

But the yelling volume increasing and close to my backside. I ready to turn behind to look what happened. It’s a woman who works at the restaurant. When she genuinely saw my face, she changed what she called me, from little brother to Mr. . “Mr. , it’s rest of ten NTW to change to you.” she told me officially.

Why some people call me as little brother? I authentically know it’s not because my look. Is it about my behavior? or my personality?

That is why I have no authority to voice out my opinion in family. Because of my “immature” behavior.

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２０１２年２月２９日 晴天

這個難得的日子，總算升出冬天難得的太陽。冰冷無情的空氣，不禁獲得滋潤，逐漸暖呼。

走在微風迎面而來的街上，轉個彎走進了早餐店買個吃的，為緊接下來的一天充充體力。

付了錢，找了錢，非常有神氣的走去上課。聼著馬路上為工作而忙碌的車輛聲，還有街邊輕聲細語的嘀咕聲，還有後方傳來一句非常不起眼、不令人注意的“弟弟”。還以爲那位媽媽在管教孩子。

呼叫聲越來越大聲，當我正開始注意到這聲音，準備回頭的時候，原來是剛才早餐店的小姐在叫著我，但在追到我的時候，也許是已看清了我的樣子，才正式叫我先生。“先生，少了找你１０塊”。她便轉身而去。

哈～在臺灣莫名地被稱呼“弟弟”已經不是第一次了。在臺灣被稱呼成弟弟是值得驚奇的，因爲這裡的人都很年輕化，二、三十嵗的上班族，就像２０幾嵗的小伙子，已為人母的女生，也很像女學生，也許是臺灣外貌協會的文化關係，所以大家都注重外表和保養。而且之前身邊有幾位朋友都常被稱謂叔叔、阿姨，但很少叫哥哥或姐姐。然而在馬來西亞大多數人年輕與年老的樣子比較鮮明，所以比較容易辨識，不會這麽容易搞錯。

這不是在炫耀自己年輕什麽，而且我永遠知道自己的樣子根本不年輕，曾經在馬來西亞還有人誤以爲我已３０多嵗＞＜。所以會被人家誤以爲“弟弟”也許是自己的言行舉止、個性、行爲都很像小孩，如果沒有清楚看我樣子的人，就會以爲我的“弟弟”了

其實在外面行事，也許我會很認真很有主見，比較不像小孩。但在家裏，我是老么，不知爲什麽整個氛圍就讓我好像很沒有地位，也許是因爲我沒有經濟能力的關係，所以也沒什麽決策權。

有時候，沒有回家的原因也就這樣偷偷的顯現了。